Green Monster

Fun fact about Thriller: Michael Jackson mentions a "40 eyed monster." There is no other reference that we know of for this monster. Jackson's writer must've made it up.


Once again here I am
I don't know why
I keep feeling this
Year after year you prove
To be better and it shouldn't be
I'm selfish, I can't help it
Green monster's got me
I always was supposed to be better
Selfish I know
I'm stronger
Or maybe this just goes to show
I'm the weaker one

Rebel, Rebel

It's sad when the rebellion
Comes at the wrong time
I thought the farther I ran
The better it'd be
But it's getting worse
And I'm ready to scream
Don't you know when to stop
I'm getting darker
I'm getting worse
Let me be
I'm gonna break all my rules
And do all that I can to get away

Free

In reply to my one post about "being free":

I am not free
Nor have I ever been
Robotics, slavery catch me
Can't you see the red in my eyes?
I'm hurting
Does the caged bird sing?
Or does it weep and scream
And all we hear is
A beautiful song
It is not beautiful
That caged bird isn't pretty
It's bleeding, dear
I'm bleeding
And I'm not singing
I'm screaming
I am not free
Nor have I ever been.


I thought I got on a deeper level than usual. Or tried to. haha

Anger Spurts Out

Most of my stuff is angst. I've come to terms with this. You will hardly ever see a happy poem from me.

Yes I love you
But that definitely doesn't mean
That I like you
I'm feeling this sick tug
And it's hurting my neck
Why can't you let go?
I want some freedom
Please, darling
Drop me for just one second
I saw the other side
It is greener
Sorry to tell you
I really need you to let go
I am me
I am not you
As much as you want me
I need you to let go
Just a bit
Not too much
Just enough to breathe again.

More, more.

I don't even know if I have all the poems for this, so bear with me. Catching up as much as I can.

I feel a trick coming
Lead me out to the house
8 miles away from the world
I keep seeing the signs
I'm afraid of getting stuck
Or lost, please
Is this a game to you?
You know my feelings
So are you seeing how far I'd go
Trap me in a hole to laugh at
I picked you to be loved
But I can't help but see
Underlying humor in this plan
Please don't lose me
Or forget me
I'm here, waiting for you

Where Did You Go?

Should be more like, where did I go? haha

Gazing out left and right
Looking back and forward
No one's around
Where did you go?
You promised me safe land
Safe from harm
But there's no one around
Am I safe from the world?
No one can harm you
When there's no one there
The world is missing
Where did you go?
You're supposed to be next to me
We're supposed to fight together
Instead you abondoned me
Was that your plan?
Where did you go?
Hiding from me, but how?
I'm standing in an empty world
You left without a world
Took my hand, led me here
And in my blind desire
You ran, to leave me here
Blank and alone
Just the air to keep me company
Gazing out left and right
Looking back and forward
No one's around
Where did you go?

Happy Birthday?

Yes, it was/is Captain Fine's birthday. If you are all re-tards and don't know who Captain Fine is, that's Chris Pine, the yummiest GQ motherfucker you've ever seen. DAMN STRAIGHT.

But it's also my Nana's birthday. She would've been 82 years old. And she passed away a year and a half ago. So I decided to write.


Been a while
It's dark
But you can still see the smoke
Where have you gone?
You're missing
Did you wish come true?
I bet it was to stay
We're all still reeling
And we miss you
Do you miss us?
Do you look down?
I'm just wondering
Because I think we're finally ready
To put the cake away.


Sorry they've been so short. I haven't been able to construct a real poem. :(